Had a Frown on Easter Day

I was having a really good week.

 I had finished all of my homework and had practiced all my music

and we had just come home from a Easter play at our church.

And that's when it happened, when my parents told me and my sister that our dog had died.

His name was Caleb and we had him for 9 years.

My sister wasn't feeling good already so she had a harder time at first.

Since I don't really like crying in front of people, I tried to hold it in but did not succeed.

So, I went to my room and I could feel the knot in my stomach.

I picked up my guitar, trying anything to distract me.

That didn't work either.

My mom found me sitting on the floor crying over my guitar like that Taylor Swift song

Teardrops on My Guitar.

If you haven't noticed yet, I'm a big animal lover.

Yes, I want to make every stray dog a pet, but that doesn't mean I do.

And also, I don't deal with change very well and this is definitely a change.

So the next day, I woke up wishing it was a dream, but I knew it wasn't :(

I thought it would make me feel better to clean up all his stuff on the back porch.

If you are smarter than I was on that day, you already know that going out to the porch was

NOT a good idea. I was more sad than when I woke up. oy

All day it was up and down again, I would start to feel better and then I would see dogs for sale on the side of the road and start crying all over again.

I didn't get on facebook or my blog.  I didn't even look at my phone.

Lets just say it wasn't a good Easter.

So, we figured out three things you always want when you're feeling sad...

1. Chocolate

2. Comfort food. (Orlando's Sonic)

3. And stand up comedy.

 

While chocolate and comfort food and comedy are great,

they were just a temporary fix.
 And shutting myself out from everybody wasn't right either.

After the chocolate, I had a stomach ache.

And the sonic, well it was still good.

I did laugh at the stand up comedy, but after it was done, I was right back to where I was before.
I quickly realized the reason why all these things weren't working is that

God meant for us to seek comfort in family and Him and I was shutting out both.

Pretty stupid huh?

Jesus was always there, just waiting for me to ask Him for comfort.
So I did :)

  Now I know, I'm going to be ok real soon.

Here are some of my favorite pics of Caleb

I will always love that annoying dog :)
ttyl